“It is a strange thing to come home. While yet on the journey, you cannot at all realise how strange it will be” – Selm Lagerlof (1858 – 1940)
It’s been a wild ride since I returned to Melbourne 7 months ago and my pilgrimage officially ended. Transitioning between vastly different lifestyles – one free-spirited, in nature, wandering, free – the other city-based, urban, corporate with contracted responsibilities – it’s not easy or instant.
Just like transplanting a plant from one pot to another can be traumatic for the plant, the change in cultures and way of life can be overwhelming for the highly sensitive person. The plant needs low light, regular watering and time for the roots to settle. So do we sensitive ones.
My first instinct was to run for my life and get out of Melbourne. Then my second instinct was to go back to everything I knew that felt comfortable. Having packed up and left then returned four times now, I knew I just needed to follow my own ebb and flow; to breathe, watch, feel the sadness and the joy, inviting a new way of being as I allowed my roots to re-settle.
For the first few days I didn’t leave my sister’s house. When I eventually did, it was to spend time with close friends or in my sacred place in nature, to walk and reconnect with the earth beneath my feet.
My intention walking the Via Francigena was to make a decision about the direction of my life. The last five years have been a pilgrimage into my own spirit, to my own centre, back to my true self. That very long walk from Canterbury to Rome was the symbolic end to this period of my life.
As I walked, the answers and clarity I sought drifted in on waves of wonder and through windows opened by overwhelming tiredness. There was no lightning strike and no massive “a-ha” moment just an inner knowing what it was I was going to do when I returned: to guide others struggling with direction and fear into the fullness of their own lives and to write – my book about walking Via Francigena and to just write because that is an essential part of who I am and how I express my experience of life.
And so here I am walking down a new path. I have written and edited my book and am preparing to send it to publishers. I have spent days pouring my heart into this website, my new online home. I have started planning my pilgrimage from Rome to Jerusalem in September 2015 because as I approached Rome my inner knowing urged me to continue on to Jerusalem. And I am preparing to launch my coaching services.
I have returned home but I am not standing in the same place - I am not the same.
“No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and he’s not the same man” – Heraclitus of Ephesus
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