In the first third of my life, all I wanted was to feel safe and happy. So I tried my best to leave my difficult childhood and the grief from my mother’s death behind. I set about doing all the things I believed would bring happiness and security: a corporate management career, a long-term partner, a lot of shopping for beautiful clothes, tropical holidays, a new car.

But as I approached turning 30, the trauma and grief buried inside me started to erupt. I was in so much emotional pain and ashamed about how bad I felt and that I couldn’t fix myself.

I was very good at hiding my pain (from most people except my partner) but I also became very isolated as a way of self-protection and too scared and ashamed to reach out for help.

Everything started to unravel - my job, my relationship and friendships. I ended up in a very dark and painful place.

It was spiritual & energy healing coupled with trauma therapy that helped me to heal and reconnect with my deepest self and soul’s callings

While my first avenue of getting help was life coaching, which helped me to stabilise and make many outer changes in my life, there was a lot I didn’t understand about my life experiences and survival mechanisms and a lot that didn’t heal or shift until I started working with my trauma therapist/spiritual healer so that I could heal not just heal on the psychological and mental levels but energetically and spiritually too.

I had believed that my childhood and the painful experiences I had were “normal,”excepting that my mum was disabled and confined to bed and I had to help care for her. I discovered that my mum and family system carried a lot of personal trauma, intergenerational trauma and difficult, dark psychic energies. My painful experiences were trauma, emotional and psychological abuse as well as emotional neglect and I had complex PTSD.

I had taken refuge in my head, thinking and logic and hidden and disconnected from my deep, sensitive gifts and my body. I showed up in life in ways I thought were acceptable and safe rather than being my true self, but it made me feel like a fraud/imposter. I lived in a state of hyper-vigilance trying to get to safety in the future. It’s so painful, exhausting and lonely to live this way.

But the journey back to myself has been the most beautiful, fulfilling, empowering and loving gift. Because it reconnected me with my soul’s essence, gifts, wisdom and power. I know who I truly am and my soul’s callings in this life.

I trained as a holistic counsellor and healer because I don’t want you to stay stuck in anxiety, fear, worry, self-doubt, mistrust, imposter syndrome, shame or immense pain and suffering and never get to experience the joy, beauty and fulfilment of embodying, expressing and being truly and wholly you

I want you to experience the depth and beauty of being you and feeling safe enough to become your deepest expression and live the life that you came here to live full of joy, abundance, service and depth.

My hope for you is that your pain and challenges become an incredible doorway to discover a treasure chest of gifts, wisdom and power where you gain the clarity and energy to realign your life with your soul’s deeper callings and what truly matters to you.

As Maya Angelou once said, “A woman in harmony with her spirit is like a river flowing. She goes where she will without pretence and arrives at her destination prepared to be herself and only herself.”

May you find and live that harmony.